
It’s taken me a long time to speak up about this. I did not want to say anything because I hurt inside. I hurt so much that I had to just bottle it up and hide it inside me and forget it. I cannot forget. It took me a while to just come to the realization that this is what happened and why, it was always in the back of my mind. Many will disagree with me especially the Armenian Diaspora. However, I am the diaspora. I am the creation of the current and historical past of the Armenian experience.
It’s as if we can’t catch a break. Armenia and Armenians keep on getting hammered. Like Job in the Old Testament, when Satan tests Jobs piety and commitment to God, by betting with God himself. He’s faced with loss of all possessions, his children, and his health. Is God just trying to test us? To test our commitment to him? Its two steps forward three steps back. Just hammering that nail into the coffin while the wood splinters.
What is it you ask? It’s about the last one hundred plus years. The Genocide. The Genocide has now been engraved into our DNA. It is part of us, it does not leave us, and it is like a open bleeding wound that will continue to. Unless we rise up and move on from the past. It’s hard, yes, we have to, or we will continue to lose what is rightfully ours. Yes, a horrible, disgusting, unspeakable act was committed against us. There is no denying that.
However, we cannot continue to bleed, we need a scar, a scab. We cannot continue to live as if we are victims. Our ancestors, they are the victims, we cannot feel their pain but only know about it and remember it. Let it be known, but do not let it define us, forgive but never forget, a very Christian thought process.
I am a Baku Armenian. Just like the Armenians of Nakhichevan, we lost everything once, then a second time and with the final nail we almost lost all of Nagorno Karabakh. Why? Why did we lose? The answer is right in front of us. It was to get the official recognition of the genocide by another United Nations permanent security council member state. It was to get the United States recognition. Once it was done, would the diaspora be satisfied?
Here is the timeline:
- US House recognizes the genocide on October 29th 2019.
- Senate recognizes it a month and a half later on December 12, 2019. After this was done, even Armenians in Armenia thought, “oh hey we got support from the USA,” they recognized the genocide.
- “We can do whatever we want.” 2020, Nikol Pashinyan announced plans to make Shushi/Shusha(I have always called it Shusha, because maybe its what my parents and grandparents have called it?), Artsakh’s new capital.
- Arayik Aaratyunyan, announced the move in a September 19th 2020. The same day Azeri President Ilham Aliyev accused Armenia of preparing for another war, a “provocation.”
- Days later, Azerbaijan with the help of Turkish military, strike at the heart of Artsakh and the 44 day war begins. Artsakh loses the war. Russia invades NKAO to establish peace.
I ask Armenians? Why? Why would we move the capital of Artsakh for Stepanakert to Shusha? Why would we do this, if not only to provoke the hostility of our neighbors? To rub it in. Hubris? We won the first war, yes, be humble. However, we could in no way sustain the continued situation. Negotiate for peace and prosperity. Be a mensch. If only we could see the downfall, hindsight is painful at times.
The hubris of our actions forced us to give up our commitment to Armenia to Artsakh. There is no Armenia without Artsakh, and there is no Artsakh without Armenia. My parents had sacrificed their livelihood and changed our families lives dramatically. We become refugees from Baku so that Artsakh could be won. We left everything. All 350,000 Armenians that lived in Azerbaijan gave up everything so that 150,000 Nagorno-Karabakh Armenians could have their independence and unification with Armenia.
However, the diaspora kept on pushing about the Genocide. Yes, it needs recognition, but the Armenian state should not be held captive by a bleeding diaspora and a new wound in Artsakh. We were all bleeding out slowly. Armenia is blockaded by Turkey in the West. The South, Iran hit with sanctions. The North, Georgia in a frozen conflict with Russia. Did we expect Armenians in Armenia to just take it? 30 years of blockades? Just like Job losing his possessions. But let’s pivot to a different contribution to this attrition or situation.
It brings delight to some ears of talk of democracy, free elections, stopping corruption. But you all forget. Every nation that is democratic has corruption. Every nation that has a dictatorship has corruption. Every nation has corruption, period. It is part of the human experience. We are corrupt, we are all sinners. American politicians, in one way or another have been or will be corrupt. British politicians can and have been corrupt, the list goes on. Europeans may want us to be democratic but in the end they only care about their security not the government system that Armenia has. They care about their influence and talk of how great their systems are. Are they that great if they bring the downfall of other nations for their security? If you can’t keep your house warm with democratic politics then why have them? If you don’t know how to use democracy as a system of governance, then maybe just maybe you need to rethink your principles and ideas of actual use of democracy?
Does the US or “democratic nations” care when they buy their oil from Saudi Arabia? Or are allied to a dictatorship in Egypt? Or the puppet governments created by western or eastern influence? Look at how the European union is now buying oil from Baku. Where is your democratic principles? They go out the door when you must heat your house. No? Will you freeze to death for an idea? No one wants to die for ideas, we have already tried that. The American experiment is unique, it is outside of the norms, it is also still an experiment. Armenia cannot be a sacrificial test of a system that is still being tested.
Allegiance, loyalty, nationalism is all that matters to our nation. Democracy is great when it has been galvanized and the belief in the democratic principles are engraved in a nation. Are they in Armenia today? In my opinion, no they are not.
To conclude. Armenia and Diaspora need to have a united goal. The State local politics and foreign politics need to be in sidestep, marching like soldiers in perfect formation.
The diaspora rather than building a better relationship with Russia, it burned it down for American support, and or European “Democracy”. America is on the other side of the world. Armenia shares a border with an American ally, a NATO member, this ally has no intent to support Armenia, why would you think America would?
We need a strong Armenia. We need to unite under nationalism not individualistic democratic principles. We are too homogeneous to survive as an individual but only as a nation, a conglomeration of different Armenian backgrounds and take Armenia into the future. A future with children that can run and play, grow old and die on their land. Our children must inherit a strong nation. A nation that is proud but is also humble and understanding. A nation that is growing. That is advancing. Relentless.
Yes, we must remember the past, and not forget it, but we must also not repeat our own mistakes, learn from them. Unify under one belief. Unify as Armenia, the four-thousand-year-old nation that will live on for another four thousand years.
Job refused to curse God, he held fast. Armenia must hold fast.














